If  I were given a chance to talk to my ex lover, these will be the exact words that my heart will tell to my mouth to spit it out,

"First of all, I just want to say sorry sa mga nagawa kong kasalanan sa'yo. Unang-una sa lahat gusto kitang i-congrats kasi malaya ka na, malaya ka nang gawin ang lahat ng gusto mo na hindi ako kasama. Noon parehas tayong nakakaramdam na para bang ang tagal-tagal na nating magkasama. Sabi mo pa nga parang 1 year na tayo where in fact, 1 month pa lang tayo.

Nakakatawa nga kasi sa halos araw-araw nating pagkikita-kita, hindi ko namamalayan may nagbabago na pala.  And that was my relationship with my friends. I became selfish when it comes to you. SOBRA! Yung ayaw kitang payagan lumabas, gumimik o kung maglakwatsa kahit saan, kailangan parati mo akong katext just to make sure na okay ka, at wala kang iniisip kundi ako. YES, ganun ako selfish sayo pero hindi mo alam ginagawa ko yun to build a strong relationship. But I was wrong. My tactics are so wrong. I didn't noticed unti-unti ka na palang nasasakal sa ginagawa ko.

Time has passed nagiging cold ka na sa akin. It started nung nalaman kong meron kang mini-meet and you don't even told me about it, and you're just waiting for me to figure it out. That was a nice game. A freakin' game na nilalaro ng isang manloloko at tanga. Simula nun, nafefeel ko nang may 'something' sayo or parang may nagbabago or may third party. Hanggang sa dumating yung time na nagbreak tayo at nalaman ko na dahil pala to sa bestfriend mo. (I can't take this anymore let's make the story short)

Alam mo hindi naman sana ako magagalit kung sincere yung breakup na nangyari at kung genuine nga yung love na pinakita for 2 fucking months pero sa isang kurap, you have your new one. Just WOW! You don't even think of having a moving on process ha. Saya. Pero sa mga nangyari sa atin , let's just keep it as a memory. And a lesson too, to our next relationships. I'll just thank God na lang for letting me to encounter a good person like you and leaving me some lessons that 'might' be helpful for my future events.

Anyway, this entry is not about reminiscing our nightmare-ish relation-shit, I give it a title of "Time To Say Sorry" so here it is, SORRY."

 

I would like to excuse myself for being such a bitter person in this blog but to be honest, this is true to life (hahaha). Yes it is and all of my entry in this category came from my heart associated with my brain (loka!). 

Kaya ikaw! Oo ikaw! Wag kang magpapakatanga sa boyfriend mo! Hindi lang siya ang tao sa buhay mo. Wag yung siya lang ang parating gusto mong makita, makasama, makausap. Wag mong kakalimutan mga kaibigan mo dahil kung kayo'y magbreak (sana) di ba't sila lang naman unang lalapitan mo? DI BA?! Kaya't wag kang magpakatanga. Habang kayo pa, sanayin mo nang hindi mo siya makasama araw-araw o oras-oras. Hindi yan robot, may feelings yan, nagsasawa rin yan. Wag mong hintayin na dumating yung time na iwan ka niya. Unahan mo na kung sakali para di masakit sa part mo (hahahah)

 

"Ang katangahan wag araw-arawin, gamitin lang ito paminsan-minsan, wag mong hayaan na ito ang magpahamak sa dignidad mo. Nakakahiya." - DGG